the agony is suffocating me
nausea
i want to vomit
i look at myself in the mirror
disgust
i want to disappear
i'm disgusted of myself
i want to ride the blade tonight
i to get rid of my agony
i don't want to go through with this again
i'm sick
sick of myself
wish i could fly away from everything
leave everything behind
just get the hell out of here
but i'm stuck
alone
with myself
my own enemy...

i want to kill him
but that means i will lose her
and she will lose me
for what cost?
my egoistic thoughts should be vanished
so i could start over again